Excited and nervous but in the end is well expected disappointment , nothing change issit? still the same old u?

Is all coming back again, those times… ya ya i get the routine of the game. 

True that unexpected things happen, and yet my anticipation is not working wit me. So am i suppose to not be happy or look forward to it, pretend that ‘oh is really nothing ’

i have to admit i said that too often till i think, i myself is believing that it is okie, cool, fine. Bull shit.